05 March 2006
Today is grey and cold. I'm missing England a lot. At first, it felt like I was just here for an extended vacation and now it feels like I'll never go back. It's a terrible feeling. My family doesn't want me to leave CA and I feel suffocated somehow, like this just isn't where I'm supposed to live the rest of my life. I can't find which way is up anymore. I think I just miss my friendships. I've seen two friends since I moved back and one hasn't returned any of my phone calls. Is that all I have left in CA? Two friends? I left an entire group of people in England who filled my last 5 days with wonderful memories. I've come home to sitting at my parents' house, watching TV, picking up my mom from work and cleaning house. I need to find a job. I need to feel useful. At the moment, I feel like a waste.
For Paul Barrett The opinions expressed here are mine and mine alone. Some (not all) names have been changed or omitted to protect the guilty. Celebrating 9 whole years of nonsense! © 2005-2014.
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