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27 January 2005

I never should've written about Princess Big Hoop Earrings. Tonight, I tried to show up to class just a wee bit late so I could avoid sitting at a table with her. Laura suggested it, that if she was already there, I could avoid PBHE altogether. Foiled!
I walk into class and our professor, bless him, had set out everyone's name cards at various tables to mix up the groups who always sit together. I saw my name card. RIGHT. ACROSS. THE. TABLE. FROM. PBHE. I moved my stuff to the end of the table, in the name of my "poor vision" and not being able to see if I sat RIGHT. ACROSS. THE. TABLE. from her. She wasn't so obnoxious tonight but she chews gum like a lazy cow on sunny afternoon. Ruffina said she could hear her chewing from across the room.

If only I had been so lucky as to be across the room.

I'm feeling better today. Medicine is good. It doesn't stop me from being down, it just means I don't completely stop functioning when I get down. I actually did the washing up tonight, after leaving dishes for 3 or 4 days. I slept really late and I'm feeling good. I was sort of mopey on my way to class and then stopped at a traffic light and just looked around. All I could think was I am SO living my dream life! How could I be depressed when I'm doing what I've wanted to do for years?? If I'd gotten married when I was 23, I wouldn't have had the chance to do this incredible thing. If I'd gotten married a year ago, I wouldn't be here right now, in a city I love, meeting new and interesting people, studying something challenging.

I'm the last of my close friends to still be single. Disa's engaged, Krista's engaged, everyone else is already married. But I'm the only one who packed up and moved 5800 miles away. I've had to start all over again, as scary as it was. I could've easily settled into the central valley housewife life but I didn't. And now, if Prince Charming isn't out there for me, my world will not come to a crashing end because I've seen parts of the world that some people only dream about. And for all of the people I've met, the places I've been, the things I've seen and done, I am truly blessed.

For Paul Barrett

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